I opened this blogging space about five months ago, and I’ve been running from it ever since. But now as things have slowed down, providing the opportunity to “blog,” life itself, has picked up making those times few and far in between. BUT! I will make a conscience effort to update. Starting with this:

There comes a time in life where making decisions is harder then actually going through the process of “life.” Within in the last week, I have discovered that as “structered” as I consider my life, it is chaotic and unorganized. And you ask how something can be both structured and unorganized at the same time, well welcome to my world.

Outside of the relationship issues, whether it be professional, personal or social, life it self has thrown me a curve ball. The decisions that are necessary at my age of 26, well 27 come fast. Do you get into this relationship, do you make this choice, do you crawl into your shell? I personally have never been a very “social” person. I have a select few that I allow into my “circle” and the rest of the world just goes on about their business. But thats the social aspect of it all. My real decisions come to the personal, but as I said, its personal, but I will leave you with this question…. WHAT IS A LIE? Not just the definition, but when it comes to relationships in general, what value does a lie really have? is it a big deal?

As for my professional endeavors, my hands are currently in a lot of things right now. My brain is running a mile a minute and I can barely keep up. I make note after note, and I never get the opportunity to cross anything off of the list. My chief adviser in it all is currently occupied in her own creations which leaves me to bounce my objects off of a mirror. Not exactly, helpful but possibly I will begin to see things in a different light. Light….

I guess I will close this with a quote by Maryanne Williamson that a new friend shared with me. Timely in its own place and she doesn’t even have a clue. Thanks a million.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are not powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people wont feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Used by Nelson Mandela in his 1994 inaugural speech.

I had to share the quote, but I will take the opporitunity to explain its light in my life, on my next entry.

Until then… Peace and Prosperity.